Here’s the thing, I don’t openly talk about my faith because it is just a sore subject with some people and I never want to push what I believe on to others. I think people have to come to God in their own way and on their own time to be fully committed. God has definitely been testing me lately and sometimes I fail to see those tests. For example, last week, I had to get up to go to work and I usually wake up at the same time every day, but for some reason I decided that I was going to get up a little bit early and take my time instead of rushing out of the door.
Fast forward about 40 minutes later (I left 15 minutes earlier than I normally do).. I get in my car and I am on my way to work. This was a Saturday morning and there is barely any traffic and I see a sign saying that the main road I take to get to work is closed. Only living in Columbus for less than a year, I know how to get to certain places without my GPS, but in this instance I was lost. Siri did not want to help me and I knew there had to be an easier way.. so I just took the next exit and tried to take backroads to work. With the help from a coworker who knew her way around I made it to work on time. Some may say it is a coincidence that I got up earlier than normal, but I fully believe it was God. Had I not have gotten up and allowed extra time, I would have been way later to work and probably even more frustrated.
Fast forward again to this past week when I was tested in my faith again. Something that could have been way worse, but I wanted to blame it all on God. Why? Because I don’t like pointing out my flaws. But after reflection, I realized that God was testing my Faith. No, what happened wasn’t fun and it was completely my fault, but I knew that somehow it happened for a reason and I am meant to learn from this situation. I had a whirlwind of emotions, but I clung to God with prayer and made it out the other side feeling refreshed and closer to God. That’s the thing, when you’re hit with unfortunate happenings in your life, I know it is easy to want to lose faith in God asking why this is happening, but this is the time when he wants you to cling to him the most. I know I will fail his tests of my faith many times again, but I will always try my best and to me that is all I can do. I am also so so lucky to have the Fiancé, Family, and Friends possible.
I really hope you enjoyed this post and I hope you can relate in some way shape or form. I love you all and hope you have a blessed week.